2015

2015

I have come to the conclusion that 15 is definitely not my lucky number, the year started off well and i was happy, i was no longer at sixth form and i had found a job i was very happy in. Then September hit and it all went to pot. 

I have been hurt way too many times for one person, i hit rock bottom in 2015 but i did learn a few things about myself and about life. If someone is from your past they should stay in your past, there is a reason they aren't in your present and that's because they shouldn't be in your future even if at one point you wanted them to be. My anxiety has taken a big drop as well which isn't pleasant. One person really hurt me, i won't name names because that's not fair but i put all of my trust in them and they let me down, sad part is i kinda saw it coming yet i didn't do anything to change it, i was turn't into someone that i wasn't and i'm very nearly back to my old self again just with a few more scars and bruises. 

As i'm nearly turning 20 this week, i really want to let go of my teenage years and never revisit them. They say your teenage years are the best years of your life but i really hope that's not the case because mine weren't great to say the least. 

I realize that not many people read this blog and its mainly for me just to rant about things and get my point across. But i do want to stress that mental illnesses are a real thing i know that many people believe that they are self-inflicted but they are real. I suffer with severe anxiety and its getting worse. But if you know anyone that suffers with any kind of mental illness let them know you are there for them, because they just want to feel like they aren't alone. Let them know you love them and care for them and that their illness doesn't define who they are.

Glee Goodbye

I started watching Glee when i was 13 years old and finished now i am 19, i has literally helped me all the way through my teenage years. Glee has taught me many things such as not trying to fit in, being true to who you really are, and do whatever makes you happy and not what makes your peers happy. I know that many people will just see Glee as a silly show directed to young teens, but to its audience it is so much more then that. I loved how you could relate to every single character in the show and how each person has their own story. 

My 20 Favorite Moments in Glee: (not in order)

1. When Kurts dad Burt Hummel performed Single Ladies to Kurt

2. When Kurt Met Blaine

3. Rachels Run Joey Run extravaganza 

4. Grilled Cheesus

5. When Mike and Tina sang together for the first time

6.When Puck Shaved his head

7. Every Britney Episode!

8. Dont Stop Believing (Of Cause) 

9. When Mr Shue. saw the Glee Club as little kids

10. When Finn walked down the corridor in his Boxer shorts

11. Finn and Rachels kiss in Faithfully

12.Gaga

13. When Santana finally came out

14. The weddings

15. When Kurt met Rachel in New York

16. When Blaine joined McKinley

17. When Rachel met her mum 

18. Christmas Episodes <3

19. When Will proposed to Emma

20.  Trouty Mouth by Santana Lopez 

Remembering Cory/Finn 

I think that the Quarterback episode was the hardest thing i have ever had to watch. Not only did we loss Finn Hudson but the world also lost Cory Monteith, The hardest part of the episode for me had to be when Lea Michele sang Make You Feel My Love, because of the pure emotion that was pouring out of her. Finn was the heart and soul of Glee and i think that he will forever missed by all Glee fans, and the episode was a great way to mourn his passing. 

My favourite song by Cory/Finn was Jessie's Girl: 

I will carry Glee with me in my heart for the rest of my life, and i don't even care how sad that sounds but it has meant a lot to me over the years and i will never forget it, so i want to say thank you to the following people:

Lea Michele for Rachel Berry

Cory Monteith for Finn Hudson

Dianna Argon for Quinn Fabray 

Mark Salling For Puck

Chris Colfer for Kurt Hummel

Darren Criss for Blaine Anderson

Kevin Hart for Artie Abrams

Amber Riley for Mercedes Jones

Jenna Ushkowitz for Tina Cohen-Chang

Harry Shum Jr. for Mike Chang

Chord Overstreet for Sam Evans 

Naya Rivera for Santana Lopez

Heather Morris for Britney S. Pierce

Mike O'Malley for Burt Hummel

Lauren Potter for Becky Jackson

Jane Lynch for Sue Sylvester

Matthew Morrison for Will Schuester

Jayma Mays for Emma Pillsbury

Iqbal Theba for Principle Figgins 

Jonathan Groff for Jessie St. James

And Ryan Murphy for writing Glee thank you sooo much!!!

 GLEE 

2009-2015

I AM A FEMINIST

Well, last year Emma Watson gave an amazing speech about Feminism for the He for She campaign. It got me thinking what she says is completely true, men seem to think that they can't be a feminist because they are male but that is not the case, a feminist stands up for female rights yes!, but they also stand for Gender equality and this is in every aspect and not just in working life.  

For example i have found this quote from another website about feminism - Feminism also, by its nature, embraces the belief that all people are entitled to freedom and liberty within reason--including equal civil rights--and that discrimination should not be made based on gender, sexual orientation, skin color, ethnicity, religion, culture, or lifestyle.

Emma Watson states in her speech that she thinks it is sad that men feel like if they show their emotions it is not masculine and its degrading for them to do so, i agree men shouldn't be ashamed to cry in public or hug one of their friends, i will never understand why in a social group, if a man shows companionship with another man it is seen in a sexual way? why? when a women hugs her friends that isn't seen as sexual so why is that the case for a guy? Another point to this is homosexuality is becoming more excepted in today's society so why is this still a problem? 

I believe that EVERYONE should be treated equally whether your male, female, have a different religion, culture, sexual orientation, skin color whatever! we should all be treated with the same respect as everyone else, none of us should feel compelled at act a certain way because of our gender. None of us should feel unwelcome somewhere because of our religion. We should all have equal rights and equal amount of say. 

This leads me onto another subject, why do young girls feel like they need to have a guy in their lives to feel special, why do they feel like they need to look and be a certain way to be beautiful, why do young people feel like they need a degree to be smart, to be loud to get noticed, to drink alcohol to "fit in" - these things are what most young people today feel like they need to be.

Young girls shouldn't feel like they need to have a boyfriend to feel special, because it doesn't make you special, you don't need to be a size 8 to be beautiful everyone comes in different shapes and sizes and they are all beautiful just because the Media shows celebrities that are sizes like 8-12 and in America size 0's they are photo shopped most of the time, there isn't a tabloid out there that doesn't use editing in their photo shoot's. Don't compare yourself to someone else feel happy in your own skin, because you are beautiful, don't try to change yourself just to look like other people.

I just want to give out a message to my generation, don't try soo hard just to fit in because if your still in school and you have to change yourself just to fit in with the "crowd" those aren't your real friends anyway, try to stay true to yourself and you will find those friends that will stick by your-side in life. If you do this you will be a lot happier in the end because you won't be confused with who you truly are, you will just know.

September Favourites

1.Meghan Trainor

This month i have been soo obsessed with Meghan Trainor, i loved All About That Bass so i researched more of her music and oh my god if you haven't heard it you need to, my favourite from her ep. is Close Your Eyes. I love the fact that her music is kind of old school style but stilll fits in with the modern music.

2.Storage Boxes

For some reason i have been buying a lot of storage boxes this month, i just think that they make your room look so much more organised and more personalized, i am a very girly girl so i love bringing my room together with floral boxes and pastel colours.  

3. Daily Vlogs

This month i have also been loving watching daily vlogs, Zoella's this month have been my favourite to watch and also VelvetGh0st's moving out vlogs, i just love relaxing at the end of the day and watching YouTube.

4.Cheryl Cole Perfume Stormflower

I dont actually own this perfume but when i went into Superdrugs a few weeks ago i had to pick it up and smell it, i just love this scent it is so girly and refreshing and ever since i have wanted it, just don't have enough money :(

5.Eye Shadow

Also this month i have started using eye shadows, i never usually wear eye shadow because i find that it doesn't suit my eye shape, obviously this isn't my picture but i hadn't taken one of my own but this is the kind of style that i have based mine on. Also i like to watch tutorials online to see if i can experiment in anyway my favourites are tutorials from Tanya Burr.

6.Switched At Birth

In August i was watching The Fosters, but because for now they are having a break i have needed to find a different series to enjoy. I have been really enjoying switched at birth over the past few weeks, the title explains a lot but it is about these two girls who were switched at birth and how their families are dealing with the struggles of trying to reunite with their true families. 

7.Yoghurt Covered Honeycomb

Lately my local Co-op have been doing yoghurt covered honeycomb, i love honeycomb so being covered in yoghurt makes it just that extra bit better i am absolutely addicted to them they are soo nice, and they are much better then snaking out on chocolate, even though i do still love my chocolate ;)

8.Michael Mcintyre

Michael Mcintyre has to be my favourite comedian i have been re-watching his dvds a lot lately he never seems to fail to make me laugh and he is on tour nest year and i am hoping that i will be able to go, but am not sure if i can, but i just think he is soo funny and always is great to watch when your having a bit of a down day.

Harry Potter Studio Tour

I went on the Harry Potter Studio Tour on the 7th September, it was truly such a good experience and well worth the money. I even want to go again haha. I think that if you are a true Harry Potter fan you NEED to go because it is spectacular and just a must see. But be prepared to spend a lot!! of money i think i spent ruffly £130 just on stuff in the gift shop, but i'm soo glad i did because i love everything i bought. I am going to show a few pictures that i took, but not all because i did take about 300+ pictures :/ got a bit carried away but hope you like my pictures and please ignore how bad i look in them. (these pictures aren't in order).

I just want to write about my opinion about the Butterbeer because i know that a lot of people want to know what its like. Personally its not for me but my mum seemed to enjoy it, i think that if you like cream soda you may possibly like it because it tastes a lot like cream soda with a caramel foam, i liked the foam just not the actual drink :/.