2015
I have come to the conclusion that 15 is definitely not my lucky number, the year started off well and i was happy, i was no longer at sixth form and i had found a job i was very happy in. Then September hit and it all went to pot.
I have been hurt way too many times for one person, i hit rock bottom in 2015 but i did learn a few things about myself and about life. If someone is from your past they should stay in your past, there is a reason they aren't in your present and that's because they shouldn't be in your future even if at one point you wanted them to be. My anxiety has taken a big drop as well which isn't pleasant. One person really hurt me, i won't name names because that's not fair but i put all of my trust in them and they let me down, sad part is i kinda saw it coming yet i didn't do anything to change it, i was turn't into someone that i wasn't and i'm very nearly back to my old self again just with a few more scars and bruises.
As i'm nearly turning 20 this week, i really want to let go of my teenage years and never revisit them. They say your teenage years are the best years of your life but i really hope that's not the case because mine weren't great to say the least.
I realize that not many people read this blog and its mainly for me just to rant about things and get my point across. But i do want to stress that mental illnesses are a real thing i know that many people believe that they are self-inflicted but they are real. I suffer with severe anxiety and its getting worse. But if you know anyone that suffers with any kind of mental illness let them know you are there for them, because they just want to feel like they aren't alone. Let them know you love them and care for them and that their illness doesn't define who they are.
