My Story

I am not writing this for pity, and for people to feel sorry for me. I just want to share what i have been through in my school life so that i can let it out of my system and let others know that they are not alone.

But in this post i'm not going to write certain details and names, this is because, i don't want this read by the wrong person. So i was bullied by the same person for 12 years, it started when i was 6 and finally ended now i'm 18. I just want to let people know that it doesn't last forever and it will end and trust me the day that you know you never have to see or hear about that person ever again is the best day of your life. The girl that bullied me spread rumors about me about something that i had apparently said to her but the things that she was saying i would NEVER say to anyone. But because she was spreading these lies around people believed her, and thought i was the one bullying her so i was alone. She spread them at times she felt she was alone, for example at the beginning and when we went up to secondary school, she felt alone because she didn't know anyone, so this is why she started telling people again that i was "Bullying her", people began to feel sorry for her and hate me. Now i know this doesn't sound like much but when it had started it went between our families as well, and at this time because of the stress i started getting psoriasis which is a type of skin irritation, that you get when you get stressed, so i had people hating me as well as others picking at me for having that. I wasn't just bullied by her i was bullied by basically my whole year group, and stupid little boys for other reasons. 

When she started again in secondary school i was about 11/12 now this time it was worse, i didn't know anyone, so nobody would believe me over her, at the time i had 2 best friends, 1 i still have now, but because we were young they never really said anything to anyone about it, which i don't blame them for because i probably wouldn't have either. This time it was worse because i was being threatened, i was being followed home,i would never go out with my friends because i was being followed, my parents were being called into the school every other day and i felt totally hopeless. I even had to get the police involved at one point because a boy had assaulted me, which was horrible. It started to quiet down after the first year of secondary school, but she never truly stopped. Up to about a few months ago i would still hear her bitching about me at every possible moment she could get, and she would always make sure that i was around when she was doing it so that i could hear what she was saying. I am not a very self confident person, so whenever she was put in a class with me i felt like i couldn't say anything because if i did then she would say something again. I felt totally ridiculous being 18 years old and being silentest and felt like i couldn't even breath around her, and its not because i was "scared" of her because trust me i wasn't i was just so fed up of hearing my own name so many times in an hour. Looking back at it now i just wish that i stood up for myself and confronted her. But i personally think that because she told the lie soo many times, she started to believe it herself and now i don't think she even knows the truth. 

I understand that my story compared to others is nothing, but i just want to get the message across that it does get better and always talk to someone about it, because if it wasn't for my parents i don't know what would have happened, but i know that for some of you talking to your parents isn't an option, but please find somebody to talk to about it because otherwise your head will become your own worst enemy. Talk to teachers, i know that they aren't always helpful but sometimes they can be, if you feel like you don't have either option then visit the beat bullying website and there will always be someone on there that will help you i will leave the link at the end.   

But i have shared this story because i need others to know about it and not hide it within myself anymore. But it does truly get better, when i was at school i was probably the quietest person in the class, but now that i have left i am becoming more positive about life and i am starting to have my own voice and not being afraid to say something.

If your reading this and you are being bullied please do not give up there is always a way out and someone to talk to, don't let them win. 

http://www.beatbullying.org/